My DadPosted: May 30, 2013
Most people who blog have an audience in mind when they write. For me, I write for my family and friends. Truthfully though, I always wrote with my dad in mind. He was one of the only subscribers I have, and I know he read every post. He would often email me after a post and say how interesting it was, or how proud of me he was. He was the person that was always educating me about nutrition and sending me articles to read about various things that he knew I was interested in. Some of the last emails I have from him are articles about natural childbirth, nutrition during pregnancy, and co-sleeping. I know he cared a lot!
This is the first post I’m writing that he wont see. I’m heartbroken.
I’ve thought a lot about what I want to say about my dad. I loved my dad so much. I’ve learned a lot from him. I’ve always wanted him to be proud of me and to approve of what I’m doing. He’s always been there for me and I always knew he loved me.
But, this past year he has been completely absent and disconnected from his family. I got angry at him and decided that I wouldn’t talk to him unless he initiated things first. I really wanted my dad to be around, but I was stubborn and didn’t reach out because I thought he should be the one to reach out to me. I kept thinking, “he’ll come around eventually” or “he’s just in a bad place right now, but he will come out of it”.
That didn’t happen. He died suddenly and unexpectedly from a heart attack yesterday.
If you love someone, don’t take their time on earth for granted. If you have something to say to someone, don’t put it off. You can’t count on tomorrow being here.
My heart is full of so much sorrow but I have complete faith and trust in God that he will provide peace and comfort for my family.